lights, camera, action!!

so as i mentioned yesterday morning was posing practice. we went through the mandatories a few times and then he wanted to see how i was coming along with the routine. well i have this one area of concern, basically there is this turn element at which the posing tempo changes briefly from a two count to a one count. most times i get all fawked up at this point. anyway we got through it a few times and i have it on tape.

when i got home from the gym yesterday i unpacked my camcorder but i could not bring myself to watch the footage. i was, i guess afraid. now my coach was so excited about what we were doing and the more times i got through it successfully the more animated he got. he is convinced i am going to do very well. this is very comforting, however, it was still a few hours before i got up the nerve to watch it.

what do i think? i don't know, i guess i will have to watch it again. i do know that it is always difficult to watch yourself perform. i know that from my skating days, on the skate footage i always appeared more stiff and more herky-jerky than i felt.

my coachs final comments and recommendation. practice, practice, practice smiling more.

in one of my earlier entries i made mention of a friend who was going through a difficult time. i am happy to report that i spoke to my friend recently and there has been a light at the end of the tunnel. this makes me very happy, i worry about all of my friends... some of them i worry about more than others. but my ability to worry is all part of my charm. now to that friend i say this; i am so very glad that things have finally improved for you. i want you to continue to do everything in your power to stay on this path.

also, i think i've been feeling a bit lost on this journey. i don't know too many natural bodybuilders and sometimes i think that although bodybuilding is still bodybuilding, there is enough of a difference that its sort of not the same. so anyway there is a natural bodybuilder who's website i've been to and who's blog i read regularily. i decided yesterday to send her an email, i wasn't asking for anything, i don't need anything per se. but she is about 10 weeks out from her show and of course she has been doing shows forever so i thought she might be good to talk to. guess we will see if she has time to respond.

better get to the gym.