must be made of sugar

set the alarm for 6am like i've been aiming to do on the off/cardio only day. got up this morning got dressed looked out the window and saw rain. rain and i really hate running... so i made an executive decision. i WILL be going to the gym on my way home from work tonight to do my pm cardio. fawk this a.m running shit. i will be sleeping in till 6:30 as before. if i get stuck at work and can't leave on time, so be it. gym is open 24 hours anyway. does it really matter if i cut into my sleep in the mornings or in the night? i think not.

ordered a couple of bottles of pro tan yesterday. looks like they had it in stock too because i've already gotten word from canada post that the shipment will be here shortly.

i need to go by the MAC booth at work i need to investigate what colours might be best for the stage. my coaches girl will be doing the make up for me so i no longer have to worry about application but the stuff that i do own, is likely not dramatic enough. i probably have to let one of those tranny guys have at my face. will do this BEFORE i leave for home. i will not be going back to work like that!!

i still need to stop by the hair salon and let her have a go at my hair again. we really need to come up with something i can live with.

finally sunday night i put my 'music' on repeat and practiced it 15 times in a row. i think maybe i can pull this off. my coach has added this element in the middle that concerns me. concern in the sense of... will i have the inner cajones to do that on stage in front of a room full of strangers while dressed only in my underwear. i mean i can do it in my bedroom but there was nobody in here... so it wasn't intimdating in the slightest.

i guess... only time will tell.