that last blog entry still disturbs me. i know women who are basically 'trophy chicks'. now maybe to an extent every woman is a trophy but dayummm some of these guys are just too obvious about it.
there is this little charmer who does not like his girl's offseason look. now don't get me wrong, some of us really like to add on the post show mass. i know last year i was one of those them, waddling around, stuffed into my clothes looking very much like a human coil of sausage. but i am not talking about that kind of offseason mass. this woman still looks in shape and many women still envy her condition. but buddy demands to know when she is going to look like she does in her show pics, so he can show her off.
then there is another who has convinced himself that he is merely trying to make his woman more comfortable with her body. he buys her dresses, tighter gym clothes and bikini's. but is he really trying to bring an introvert out of her shell? or is his real motivation the opportunity to be seen in the company of a chick sporting a hot little number?
my mother's main source of irritation is the lack of a man in my life. frequently she likes to initiate these little heart to heart talks, where she tries to understand exactly what it is, that i am doing wrong, that is keeping me from having someone. mother does not understand this line of conversation makes me feel like sh!t and i have no interest in discussing it. she doesn't understand that we all don't get someone. you would expect her to be more tolerant her mother, her aunt and her husband's baby sister have all lived their lives... alone. clearly the old maid gene has been passed on to me.
finally, especially now as i attempt to add more and more muscle to my frame... i know the chances of me ever finding anyone get slimmer and slimmer. there is a minute percentage of men who like women with muscle... and the percentage of men who like women with muscle, who have muscles themselves is even smaller. you subtract the men already in relationships and you've got little left to choose from. guess i won't be coming to a mantle near you any time soon.
the strength is starting to return in the gym, which is nice. i've already finished my two weeks of below maintenance eating. my weight has fluctuated wildly throughout these past two weeks. i can only imagine that my 32 months of dieting has my metabolism still in a bit of a tail spin. i am going to run another week of below maintenace eating... i think that my weight should be holding steady before i switch to the above maintenance. remember my friends the goal this time is NOT to repeat the mistakes of last offseason.
the photoshoot pics have arrived. i am still trying to sort out my feelings on them. that sounds bad... it could be because it is a very different look for me, it could be because i have never been 'good' at looking at myself objectively, or it could be... that it is simply too much. but it is nice to see that i really did improve my hamstrings this year.
the last thing i wanted to share is my plans for today. i recently found a women's only motorcycle club. first of all this club has chapters in canada, australia and the u.s. they 'ride' to raise money and awareness for women's issues; breast cancer, rape crisis, the list continues, they travel and they teach basic motorcycle maintenance. today is one of their events. it is a bike wash to raise money for a woman's hostel and for a trust fund for the family of a fallen rider. fyi, in the motorcycle community a fallen rider is one who does not get back up!
No comments:
Post a Comment