and still i rise

since my last post my knee has been diagnosed and i know what i need to do to get back on track. i will be seeing terri twice a week for a while. in another 5-7 weeks i will have a follow up with my sports doctor. he currently has me on a 40 degree range-of-motion limitation.

originally i b!tched and complained about the limit while simultaneously fearing the muscle loss. well it turns out that i couldn't break 40 degrees right now even if i wanted to, checking my actual range-of-motion was something we worked on today. anything greater than 40 degrees felt like an icepick was being driven through my knee.

i've had to make the necessary changes on the gym floor. it requires a bit of creativity on my part and a lot of searches for exercise variations. my friend has been trying to knock into my thick head, that this is merely a blip on the radar screen. i fear her arms will tire long before i get it.

i had a couple of leads last week for contract positions but unfortunately they didn't pan out. i am still at home looking for my next gig. i am also now looking for something part-time, the question is what? i know that the last time i tried to work part-time i got really sick when i got a full-time gig. but i think i know where i went wrong last time and should be able to avoid that in the future.

i am hovering around 169 so that means i am still within my range. i have still been having my cheat meals but i haven't been taking pictures. it doesn't make sense really as at this point i'm just fulfilling odd cravings. case in point, i have already purchased this saturday's fare.

while i was in the grocery store i ran into one of the guys from the gym. he looked at me oddly. i explained that i haven't had kraft dinner in a really long time. then he tossed back his head and laughed at me. yes, i know kraft dinner sounds like a really odd cheat meal but it is what i want dayum it. ;-P

i haven't figured out the dessert choice. part of me would enjoy a mccains deep n' delicious chocolate cake or maybe one from pepperidge farms. but that is way too much cake for me to eat by myself in a single sitting. i am toying with the idea of going for one of those cinnabon's though.

my mother has been coughing lately. it's really horrific sounding. it was this return of her asthma that prompted her doctor to prescribe what we think may have been behind her recent t.i.a. suffice it to say i worry a lot these days.

until next time...