and so it begins...

well after weeks of deliberation and way more thought that probably is necessary i've finally decided to join the blog culture. what is this blog going to be about? well specifically it will be about my journey to the stage. now there may be some of you reading this who have not yet heard the news, so i will pause briefly while you pick your jaws up off of the floor.

yes that is right, despite years of adamantly and emphatically stating that i would never, ever, ever strip down to my underwear and compete, this summer i am doing just that! i guess how it happened doesn't really matter. but what you need to know is that i've been dieting for this show since february 24th and i've been training for this show since january 4th. my boss at the gym is in charge of my training, my routine and likely the production of my music. the diet and cardio are responsibility of the same guy i've been using since i started this healthy lifestyle. which i think means there is a lot less 'guess work' as we bring me in for this show.

likely the next natural question is, when is the show. well as odd as this may sound, i have not announced the show date. there are a select few who do know when it is and they are; my trainer, my nutritionist, the woman making my suits, my good friend in new jersey and the woman who used to be my training partner (but i can guarantee you that she doesn't remember and couldn't tell you even if her very life depended upon it).

as the whole entire show prep process is new to me, i really just want to focus on that. in fact i haven't told very many people that i am even doing a show. truth be told i deny that i'm prepping for a show whenever i am asked by co-workers and club members. i just want to focus on what i've got to do, to make sure i step on stage with the best possible package i can bring. i fear that i may lose focus if i allow myself to be distracted or allow myself to get lulled into a false sense of security.

there is something i've noticed in my travels on the many bodybuilding boards. it seems everybody wants to win their pro card. now that is a very impressive goal, but i can't say that it is one of mine. my current goal is this one show. i don't even know if i'm going to like competitive bodybuilding so it seems a tad premature to consider such a lofty aspiration.

as well, i've already lived the life of a pro athlete in a sport that was not embraced by the main stream. for many years i competed on the ASA pro tour and even though i was a pro athlete i still kept a 9-5 job and i spent far more money competiting than i ever made. those of you who 'know' about bodybuilding will know how familiar this sounds, the reality is, the streets are lined with gold for only a select few, (and whats worse the industry itself barely tolerates female bodybuilding). don't get me wrong my years on the tour were some of the best of my life and if i had it all to do over again, i would. i also have to admit that it was kind of nice to be a 'pro' skater, even though the reality was that title really didn't mean a dayumm thing.

so stay tuned if your interested, or lose this URL if your not. at the very least this is just a place on the web for me record my thoughts and chronicle my journey.