well my friends my computer has been resurrected. i'd love to say that i got the information of my seized hard drive but sadly that's not the case. as it stands i still have the unit, but i've got to save up a whole wack of cashola to get my information off the drive.
again, i can't just turn my back on 3 years of bodybuilding progress, nutrition plans. that is information that i feel i can't do without. there is a lesson here. next time i will be smarter.
well i'm heavy into the carb rotations. in the beginning it wasn't as bad as i feared. the carb free days weren't even as hellacious as i imagined. however i have been doing it for a little over a week and i can honestly say i am starting to feel different. my legs are tired and heavy. i feel the need to sit more than i did before. granted i can still train but cardio is really starting to suck something awful.
the other interesting change in this journey to the stage is a sudden feeling thats overcome me in the last little while. simply i feel small. okay now i am currently 12lbs less than i was when i started this journey but that's not what i mean. i mean when i look in the mirror i dont see a bodybuilder, i just see small... and i don't think i like it. i've asked around on the boards and what i am feeling is normal, its part of the mental game that has to be endured. i guess the lack of carbs to some extent is responsible for my irrationality.
i will continue to charge toward the stage but in the back of my mind i focus on the muscle mass that i will be putting on in my next offseason.
the battle continues my friend and this tired warrior marches on.
1 comment:
carbs & "charm"... what a combo for you! hehe!
i know you will get there! as always proud of you & your determination, accomplishments, discipline, taking chances & all that good stuff!
i haven't been online much either...too many commitments to others lately....but glad I checked in & see you are back online & hope the hd resurrection works out!
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