they like me... they really like me

well as i've mentioned previously i've been green-lighted for my return to the gym and to training. something odd happened monday morning and i did not wake up in time to hit the gym before work. at the time i was pretty pissed off but in hindsight i think it was for the best. i went to the gym monday after work with a plan, i was going to squat, i was going to start off light and work my way up.

well i had to park my ego in dry dock as what i expected to be 'light' was all kinds of kicking my azz, there was no going up. and to add insult to injury i did not experience DOMS, (delayed onset muscle soreness), but rather its evil twin IOMS, (instant onset muscle soreness). my quads and hammys were locking up tighter than fort knox! but im a determined lil cuss and i kept in there and got 'er done even though i left the gym with the grace of fred sanford.

that night i received a lot more email and private messages from people within the bodybuilding community. i am hugely flattered over all of the positive feedback and supportive comments i have received. one thing is for sure i still don't see what they do. i guess that's a good thing though. since i don't think i look like a bodybuilder yet i will just have to keep working hard.

i was having this very conversation with one of my bb friends today. she was commenting how 'we' had a distorted sense of self, as fans of bodybuilding we are used to seeing athletes with more years in the sport, with physiques we can only dream of. thats not to say we aren't going to move heaven and earth to get dayumm close but the reality is, the chances of looking like an ifbb pro is slim to none.

another friend told me that i needed more pictures up here. she feels that my witty repoirtee is not enough to keep people tuning in. well here then is an example of what i think of when i think of a competitive fbb and what i see when i look in the mirror.

yup... miles to go before i sleep